Friday, 30 January 2015

Back to School / Follow Your Dreams

In Sunday's post, I mentioned that I'd started an evening class. It's kind of a big deal for me, so I thought I'd talk about it a bit more.

Since before I was diagnosed with cancer - in fact, for as long as I can remember - I've wanted to spend my life being creative. After university, the same as many others, I needed money and took the first temp job I was offered. One thing led to another, mainly a nice pay cheque and, before I knew it, the job had become permanent. As all too often happens, I got comfortable and complacent. Fast forward seven years and I was still there. Earning a semi-decent wage, but utterly miserable. I had just started to get myself together and re-explore my creativity and make plans, when the Big C swooped in and my life became all about surviving one day at a time. 

It literally sucked the life out of me. I could barely walk to the bathroom or up the stairs - there was no way I could draw, sew, or learn a new skill. 

Nearly three years on, I finally feel like myself again. Recovery is such a long, slow and painful road, but I'm at a point where I feel that it's now or never. If I don't follow my dreams now, then when? I don't want it to be too late and don't want regrets.

I never went back to that job and, although I'm working part-time now, I have plenty of time to pursue my creative endeavours. The after effects of cancer and its treatment still plague me daily, which makes for slow progress. It's frustrating, especially when I see others progressing so quickly and making it look easy, but there's nothing I can do about it, so I try not to be hard on myself. I do what I can do. Little by little. With a few big steps thrown in too, like signing up to this class.

All my work has always been done by hand and I have absolutely no clue about digital design, software, how to translate my work into the digital realm. So I enrolled on a digital art and design evening class, one night a week. As an introvert, this kind of thing is not in my comfort zone, so I'm really proud of myself for doing it.

There have been two sessions so far and I'm enjoying it so much. I may not want to go out when it's cold and dark, and I may be shattered afterwards, but I've already learned a hundred percent more than I did before I started. It has already helped me improve the look of my blog (still lots to do, but it's a start) and begin to understand how I can pursue digital avenues with my illustration and design work. This will all be invaluable for my shop.

My new blog header and 'about me' profile picture are two of the things I've made so far. They may be basic and easy peasy for a lot of you, but to me they are real totems of achievement.



So, what am I saying? I'm just babbling really. I'm happy and excited, because for the first time in so long, I feel like I can do this.

If there's something you've always wanted to do, then please, go for it. It's never too late to follow your dreams.


What are you doing to make your dreams a reality?

xx




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12 comments:

  1. I'm currently in that after uni job rut, I took a job because I needed a job as soon as I left uni and I'm still doing it, even though I dislike it. I've got comfortable because I can pay the bills but I crave creativity and working with people who I have things in common with. I definitely need to make some changes this year.
    I think you're doing amazingly well and shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Our bodies work in different ways and at no set time scale. You'll get to where you want to be and you're doing a fantastic job of it. The evening course sounds great, really hope you're enjoying it. xx

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    1. Thanks so much, love! I was exactly the same - it's such a shame that it usually takes something really awful (in my case, cancer), to make us realise what's important. Money isn't; happiness is. I really hope you can find a way to begin doing more of the things you enjoy. Start small - it all adds up! Good luck, I look forward to seeing what you change! xx

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  2. Yay!!! I'm so excited to see all of your wonderful new designs as your experience and knowledge double! You are going to be amazing!! Enrolling on a night course is a wonderful idea as well, not too much pressure and plenty of time to put your new skills to action at home. xx

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    1. Thank you, my darling! It's all exciting and nerve wracking! xx

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  3. This all sounds very exciting! I'm currently attending an evening class to resit my gcse maths so I can get a B and do a degree in Speech Therapy! Never thought I'd be doing maths again and I hate is as much as I did in school but it has to be done :/
    I'd love to do what you're doing and do a course that really interests me :) keep at it!

    Hannah xx

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    1. Oh wow, good luck! I'm hopeless at maths! I hope it gets you to where you want to be! xo

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  4. That's awesome! I think it's great to want to keep learning new things and developing your skills. The blog is looking great (your new hair do is amazing!). It can be hard to motivate yourself to do things outside of your normal routine when the weather is so shit. I go to yoga an evening a week at the moment and when it's pissing down I'm so not up for getting on the bus but afterwards I feel incredible! :)

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    1. Thank yooou! And yes, absolutely - these cold, dark winter nights are not conducive to any kind of activity/productivity, so I'm pleased myself that I've been managing to go! x

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  5. Well done you for putting yourself out there! I've been in the same job for 9yrs now and am totally inspired by you for breaking free and doing what you want to do! Here's hoping the future continues to be super shiny for you xx

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    1. Aaaah, thanks, lady! Everyone should break free! xx

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  6. Go you for getting out there! I love the new header and profile photo! I've no idea about digital design and all that so, I'm definitely impressed with your skills!

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    1. But your blog looks so good! Clearly you know more about web stuff than I do! Thanks, doll - I'm glad you like the new additions! xo

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